I got stir crazy sitting in an office, I don’t get how a man can live in a cubicle. Even when you are getting after it. How do you stand to look at the same gray clothed walls for eight plus hours a day? Looking at the same four wall of my office all day is enough to drive me crazy. Today was a perfectly good example, stuck in my office I could not sit still long enough to concentrate. I was tired of looking at the same old things. An as I am sat there thinking to myself why? I currently have the freedom to have my office anywhere I want. I packed everything up. Laptop, coffee, cigar, hopped in the car and drove down to the local park.
There is a light breeze, it is chilling and hazy today. I am sitting at a picnic table with a view of the river on a fall day. There are people who pay millions for this view and I get it for free by just acting and going to it. I hear some arborist’s working in the park, chainsaws screaming. There was a time that was me, seems like a lifetime ago. Brings back good memories of another time in my life. I never considered it hard work at the time. It was fun, something to wake up, rolled out of bed and go conquer another day. Another job – always different.
Life has become too complacent too boring; you go out of your way to find extremes to just have a taste of life again. Envious of those that live life. How do you just sit there? reading or seeing something that someone did and your answer is: I wish I could go do that. Why haven’t you? Why have you not got up off your ass made it happen? What holds you back? What keeps you from achieving your dreams?
I can tell you one thing that holds you back – doubt – it creeps in from all sides. From those that you hang out with. From society that says the exciting life is for someone else not you. Another thing that holds you back – fear, fear of the unknown, the fear of failure, the fear for fear itself. Then self-loathing kicks in and you mind becomes a cesspool of crap and you are stuck there. The last thing is criticism, you can’t hack it, you can’t be told what you are doing is wrong or not good for you. You overindulge in self-help and it becomes mental masturbation of a circle jerk.
How do I know these things, simple at some point in my life I have experienced it all. More than once, thing is the older I get the more I realized this in myself and when I see it. I know it is time to seek change. I act, not always the right action. I have fallen down many times in my life, difference between me and you. I have gotten back up. That is the difference between people that have what you perceive to be an interesting life and a boring one. Its only boring because you are not willing to get back up. You are willing to accept defeat.
I have a knack for looking at the big picture of things, I no longer can count how many men I have helped. Explored ideas, shown them better ways to do things. I made my last prior job so efficient that it drove me almost to tears because of the boredom of it and I was not even in a cubicle. I have given up countless hours of helping others out. Yet again I failed.
For you see even as I can see the big picture for others. I am in my own picture and in that picture, I have a very hard time seeing it all. I only view from different angles. Seeing it as a whole is very hard. This is where I had to stop, ask others to look at my picture. For I am not unique in this ability to look at the big picture. Asking for this help, is where you fail, you need to reach out. You need to find the mentor, the friend, the brother, the tribe, that is willing to tell you the truth. For you see there is the catch, many will tell you what you want to hear for a price. Then sell you some more things that you don’t need. What you truly need is to here the hard truth of things.
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