“I descend from the sky and land on things really hard, and I go at everything with that amount of fury.” ~Henry Rollins
People often ask me why I’m so angry all the time. Why do they ask me that? Because they simply don’t understand. People take most things at face value, judge books by their covers, if you will when wherein lies chapter after chapter of simple yet thorough explanation.
There have been times in my life when I have been angry, excruciatingly angry, but it’s not all the time, it’s never all the time.
What I am all the time, however, is enraged. Rage and anger are not the same, though at times they can be symbiotic; they can co-exist, one can feed the other, but they are not the same.
Anger is unhealthy; anger is a filthy, poisonous emotional reaction. Rage, on the other hand, is focused. Some would say focused anger, but I like to remove anger as a component altogether because whereas anger is a short burst, rage burns forever.
This is not to say that rage cannot begin with anger, be born from anger, and in my case, it was exactly that. I spent years unhealthily holding on to anger towards my father, my girlfriends, my surroundings, myself, which is inherently destructive, but rage, on the other hand, is entirely creative.
Rage is a desire, a deep, burning, unrelenting desire that fuels a man to accomplish, to be the best version of himself, to refuse to return to mediocrity, if he was ever there, though I doubt many a man ever developed rage from a place of constant success.
We as men are often shamed and told to keep our rage at bay, that something is wrong with us for being born aggressive and having violent tendencies. Usually, by women, because women cannot begin to understand what it feels like to be driven by a desire for violence and aggression.
We are the product of a violent creator God, after all. His most precious creation.
It is this very reason that men take up endeavors such as weightlifting, martial arts, and other physical outlets in order to channel these desires in a healthy way.
Rage is our very best tool for self-development, creativity, and strength cultivation. It is not wise to keep it at bay and not use it, because that is when it will turn to anger. Rage drives us, we have to understand this, and we have to use it accordingly.
Ecclesiastes 9:10 states, “Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.”
If you are prone to anger, learn to transmute it into your work and allow it to become rage, and I promise you that rage will drive you to accomplish great things. It is a part of us, something we are born with, and like strength, must be cultivated and applied so that it can lead us to our higher selves.
There is nothing at all wrong with us; we just descend from the sky and land on things really hard.
Jayson the Argonaut
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