A decade of time, that looking back went by quickly. I have always heard as you age time seems to move faster. I can believe that. Which both excites me and lets me know I have a lot of work to do. This will be the final piece in the series of my work history, for right now I am living the next chapter. It is an easy block of time to dissect, from May of 2009 to June 30th, 2019. May is the month that I went from being a tech in a shop of ten men to a one-man shop.
Inside a corporation one never really works alone, always someone in charge of you, even CEO’s have their board of directors. I will say I had what comes closest to running the show by myself. I had several regional mangers over the years, all good men, who held me accountable to get the work done and improve. The shop was my domain, I was in the school bus industry, doing repairs from bumper to bumper.
When I originally went back into working on school buses, I was thinking in terms as a steppingstone while I finished up schooling and went on to other things in my life. I would never had guessed I would be there for the next ten years. A lot happened in these ten years and having the stability (I say that loosely) was a good thing, for my personal life was in quite a turmoil. I have written quite a bit on this inside this blog. The main things, I went from decent fit to obese, back to getting fit again. I divorced and became a single father with full custody of his son.
I worked hard at my career, for you see this was my dream job for an exceptionally long time. I worked to change my attitude toward drivers. I worked to be a better person overall, I worked on my anger issues, I worked on many things. Yet time and people beat me back down, in some areas, when you are nice and trying hard to do good things, shit people will take advantage of you. With my health failing this just compounded issues and threw the balance off. I became bitter to those at work. Especially as I started to change and get healthy once again. Bringing balance back to my life, CHRIS has a good article on balance “ Balance Is The Key To Your Life” Reading material such as this from other writers helped steer, plot a course, and get me back on track.
Charles Sledge is another man, his works at charlesledge.com have been very influential in my thoughts over the years. I discovered him about the same time I started fixing myself. I am thankful that he is still writing today. Many from that early era of blogging that I use to read have drop off to the wayside. I have lost track; of how many last posts I have read over the last few months. That is ok, other men have taken up the mantel of writing, fresh thoughts enter the sphere, here at Barbarian Rhetoric I working to showcase these great men.
My mind wanders for a moment.
Back to the decade, I have spoken of it here and there, several things seem to happen at once. Over time at the shop I became very efficient at my job, this efficiency led to boredom and a lost of desire to a skill I once enjoyed. Even now, eleven months since I quit, I still have no desire to turn a wrench. Possibly one day I will find the joy of it again. I didn’t quite jump ship earlier because the job afforded me the flexibility of being a single parent with a young son. I am very thankful that, life could have been much harder.
As I work to fix myself physically, I also started to work on my mental self, I could not read enough books and blogs, on improvement, adventure, other work opportunities. I wanted more out of life than working at a shop for thirty more years to retirement. My son has become very self sufficient and needs less of my time, which opened time for me to do other things. Which along with many other things continued to build up to the point that I knew it was time to put in my resignation. Which both scared me and excited me, it back me into a corner and forced me to improve and do something. Instead of wallowing in place.
Here I am now, with many failed starts, failed ideas, failures that all became lessons to improve. I have Barbarian Rhetoric which continues to grow daily. I have Barbaric Soap, that has become an awesome adventure, I have and continue to learn more daily. At one time both were not much more than a dream.
July 1, 2019 became a new day, in a new chapter of my life, you can read past articles here in the blog to catch up with me and then following along. Because I don’t know what tomorrow holds, however I welcome it, for I have found the balance I lost in my life, I enjoy every day I wake up, spending time with my son, lift heavy things, read for enjoyment and improvement, life is good.
Agnitio Veritas Macto
This is part 7 of a series as I work through my history of jobs I have had.
Part 1: 31 Years Of Blood Sweat & Tears-What I Learned
Part 2: Mistakes Cost More Time And Money
Part 3: My Thoughts On Adventurous Years Of Learning
Part 4: Finding Oneself In The Work He Accomplishes
Part 5: I Used Trucking To See This Beautiful Country
Part 6: The Military Is A Experience Of A Life Time
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